So.
I've been browsing the profiles of my friends recently. And I'm struck with such memories.
Some of these people are still around, many of them have left for quite a while, some I've only met once. And yet I wish I could still be talking with them all.
I've never met most of you guys.
I don't know who you truly are, nor what you are on the other side of your screen.
And if I have, only for a short time.
I remember times when I would dedicate much of my time to talking with my friends here on dA; I remember times when I would constantly write new things, post new journals, send links of hilarious videos, or simply relaxing.
I want those times back.
I'm nearing the end of an extremely important chapter of my life. And as it draws near, another important chapter it just getting ready to begin.
Time will be scarce, and I will still continue to be busy.
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I remember the times, over 3 years ago, when lengthy conversations would take place with more than 10 people at a time. Many people would think it's over loaded with walls of text.
But those are my fondest of memories.
I would pay anything to have those times back, and even better, do it all again, perhaps different.
I would repair broken damage, re-visit fond times, and have a great time.
Over 3 years, and many are hard to find.
I do not blame them for not being here. Like myself, life has taken over. The real world is out there to show us that there are things to be done, places to visit, people to meet, perhaps problems to face. And I heartily encourage everyone to live life as much as they can.
This is a journal that shows how I rest on the line.
A line that separates an old life from a new life.
I have the choice; I can choose where I want to spend my time.
This is me saying: I want both.
I want to make new memories, not only here with my friends, but with the friends I have in the real world, and add onto the memories I will no doubt be reflecting on later in life, when I'm in a completely new chapter again.
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My aim for this journal is to simply convey my feelings, and to show that I'm still here.
It is not intended as a motivation to commit your time to a website simply to please me, nor is it intended to make anyone feel guilty.
It is not a letter of goodbye. It is not a sob story.
Rather, the opposite.
I want you all to know that I have kept these memories.
And as a chapter of my life draws to a close, and I near the decision...
No matter where I go, no matter how much time I spend or don't spend here...
No matter how busy you and I will be...
I will always remember you guys. You will always be remembered as some of my greatest friends.
You know who you are.
Whether in the chat room, Skype, the forums...
This website has been my social network, my way to become friends with those who don't judge on looks, only on personality.
It has been my way to express my talents, some I did not know I had
Oh how I wish reality could share the same luxury.
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So for anyone who I follow, any friends who have talked with me, perhaps know me, or anyone who gets this in their messages.
Thank You.
Thank you for the wonderful memories you have given me, and thank you for times that we've had.
I pray for many more in future.
I pray that my times here will not be in vain. And so far, they haven't
I pray that time will be lenient, and that life will be merciful to allow me the time to create new memories.
While I'm here, new memories will be made, while old memories will be remembered when I'm gone.
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If you've read through all this, then let me say again that this is not a goodbye letter. This is not putting the blame for anyone. This has been something that had been put on my heart, something that will not leave my mind. I will admit, it's been there for a while, but I figured now is a good time to put it down into writing.
I plan to be around. I cannot guarantee how long it will be, nor how often.
But I will be around, and I will return, until the time comes that perhaps I won't need to be here to create memories with my friends here on dA.
But that's for another time.
For now, thank you to all my friend once again. I hope you get the opportunity to read this message in the first place, and if you have, then there you have it.
Hope to talk to you again guys soon.
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- Destroyer9283
Music listened to while making this journal:
~~"Ocean Starts Falling" by Homestuck
~~"Do You Remem8er Me" by Homestuck
~~"Infinity Mechanism" by Homestuck
~~"Frost" by Homestuck
~~"Crystalanthemums" by Homestuck
~~"Skaia (Incipisphere Mix)" by Homestuck
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